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清楚

也许，我已经知道自己想要什么了。

我知道

那是恶作剧之吻原声带其中的一首歌曲。可能有点no link只是刚好跑进脑子里罢了。

五月天《孙悟空》里有一句歌词，是蛮有新鲜感的，也是值得去思考的。只是大概不是现在吧，因为应该专心应考。可是，问题一直都存在着。所以有点困扰。如果我本生已不太赞成，而我姐姐的想法也跟我一样，那么大概也不会有什么结果吧。我也不清楚。其实，慢慢的，经过几次的考验，是有学到东西的。本性难改。是我，也是大家。因为是错是对，也许没有绝对，可是为他人着想，为自己着想，也找得到答案吧。我也心怀几分感激，也许这不是故意的，又也许不是无意的，可是如此的安排，总比匆匆忙忙的好。因为要懂得自制。是好是坏，我也有几分明了。所以也许宁愿等待，也不会去爱。

也差不多写完了。

school and all

was high during school today. haha. at least during bio yah. drew some funny eskimo on leong's worksheet. yay. leong ftw. gloria jenny neo jin yin (: hahah. mr chan said that she doesnt look like a gloria but a jenny instead. so we decided that her middle name should be jenny then (: haha coolios. 'jenny....what's the problem..'clickfive!

had quite abit of mo qi with geraldine too! haha we totally said the same thing and sang the same song. at the same time (: hahah. so funny.

today no pe cos it was raining. quite alright lah i don't mind. v lazy to go for pe x.x

i think im dying for revision? ok. sigh.

oh. we found out when's mr chan's birthday! haha 2 days after mine leh! 18 sept! hahah. so cool. september baby also.

and i just saw ms karen tan's photos of aidan on facebook! SO CUTE LAH her baby! lol looks v shuai worx! haha. hvn't seen her for ageeeeeees. she's such a sweet tcher.

'm not going for speech day tmr. lol. cos i don't hv court shoes n i still hv to go get blazer, skirt, shirt and tie and rah. so mafan. yupp. wanted to go lah. but nvmmmmm........

anw happy birthday sihui! :D hahah hope ya liked the stuff :D

4 more days! haha. can't believe it. maybe i've been waiting since the start of the year -.- hahah. not that im really keen on getting older but well it's like a special day. yeah. too bad it's like so near promos -.- can't enjoy ): i know 2 other ppl who have the same birthday as me! :D haha. make that 3 if you count lky too xD actly guess what. it's 4! omg. haha SO COOOL. xD haha. ohmygoodness! ahh. SO EXCITING! THREE OF US same birthday leh! same school somemore! and same level tooo! ok maybe no big deal cos the sch population is so big but thennnnnnn........i kinda know the 2 ppl (: so quite cool i think. xD heh. edit. ok. actly i only know 1 of them i realised. cos i mixed up.

remember?

haha september's here. ok. i smart. i realised i didn't plug in the wire to my laptop so currently it's not charging -.- though i switched on the switch alr (y)

ok. im wondering if you'd remember cos you forgot last year. i wondered bt something else too but i stopped because there's nothing much to wonder about, actually. i hope.

yay. happiness from ystd. probably the 1st time i gain much satisfaction from achieving something. haha. i donno. i mean it's a rare opportunity and i got it so im happy (:

on something else. haha. definitely not the first time i've heard it but well maybe i've grown up to use my head more though dht says listen to your heart. alright.

and on the last issue of the day. roarzx. WHY YOU SO IRRITATING. ok lah. im not irritated now. was only irritated at the point in time when u were being irritating -.- but hellooooooo i realised something. that it was supposed to be something just among the 3 of us but it spread. ok i ain't really angry bt that it wasn't that bad i guess so im still alright with it. but hello must u keep harping on it? like wow it's so fun and funny and entertaining -.- and pls. why am i like the scapegoat here?! im sure u just do this lah pls. im sure. lol. firstly you don't understand me. and maybe, on that basis, i should just forget bt everything because you don't know me well. because maybe it won't make sense thinking ur so -.- in doing all the things you do.

the way i blog is quite lame n crappy because it's like public so it isn't really convenient to say much here and yeah sure i can make the posts private but that's quite lame as well. but i guess it's just a way of keeping quick updates on what's been happening and stuff.

theory

ok. i was quite happy when i came home cos i received an email which notified me bt sth nice. then it felt as though amidst all this shit there's like sth nice afterall and there're really ups and downs. but guess what. i totally fell aslp super early. and im feeling like shit now -.-

rant

alright. i think i'm in need of some ranting.

i'm anal about something. ok maybe it isn't really fair because i used to be guilty of it as well. but as of this year, no. i might even turn to that if i should need it really much but roarz i donno why i just got irritated. it's not like anything new then da jing xiao guai or shao jian duo guai or what. it's like so common and so expected but yeah. maybe i have expectations. i donno.

next. i realise damn omgggggg -.- ok i dont care if im slow or what. because this kinda thing takes time and first impressions and shallow judgments don't do you good. yupp. so it SANK IN today so today's the day manz. realization sets in. whoazx. my brain probably gave me a quick analysis of the situation and it should be right because when it comes to matters like this ur brain is usually right. because it's something factual and something habitual so na-ah to what you feel. so what's gonna happen? just seee how things go but well. maybe it's good news maybe it's bad news it was down but now it's up.

right. i think that'll be the end of my rant. feel better now. cya.

walk and friends

ok. i miss walking. actly. it's only nice when you feel the need to walk. otherwise it's quite lame. walking too much just numbs you. like everything else actually. hvn't walked for a long time. at least half a year i guess. used to walk alot when i was in rg. it's nice. but now i don't need to walk anymore because i just take a direct bus straight home. yeah. ok. maybe i was emo just now. but i guess it's easy to be when you're tired and hungry yeah.

on friends. yeah maybe no jap. i wish i still take lessons at moelc. although it'd be quite sad to go home so late every 2 days of the week. but i survived through sec 3 and 4 going home at 730. heard lessons are really fun. and i really miss my class. i feel detached from the whole jap thing now. it's kinda sad. yeah. and my command of the language probably sucks to the max now. i don't think i regret quitting. it's probably a load off my shoulders. though i'd love to continue learning the language very much. so 'd probably be saying hi to external lessons soon. it was probably the thing that helped me through those 2 years. i know that i felt sad whenever i reached home from moelc. because suddenly there's no more fun and stuff. then i'd sit down and emo. sometimes. it was a comfort. warmth. and support i suppose. i know i keep talking bt the same thing over and over again. but some things you just can't help it.

wherever you will go

that's like one of my fav songs. for what it's associated with and for the music itself.

just listened to it on the youtube vid posted on my friend's blog. not sung by the calling but by the alex band i think. wonder how it'd sound like if a girl sings it. lol.

tchers' day celebration was very entertaining. and the present giving session after that was quite cool too. haha.

this never happened before

it's such a beautiful song (: so calm and soothing.

anw went shopping in town w classmates today! haha yay (: 'm really thankful for them! :D

huiyi ngan sam jianhong wang zhengpei leong alicia michelle and kelly! (: 'm so glad we shopped finish alr :D so tmr no more shopping! just doing up the cards i guess. and kudos to amy as well for helping to develop the photos! :D yay.

okie. im supp to finish up my math n chem!!!!! bb

fire

bleah. i was probably just stupidly frigging over excited over some hugggeeeeeeee fire ):